seeing the world through a new lens

I have really enjoyed my nikon Jonathan got me for my birthday. As most of you know, i love pictures and i am so glad that i do because i have so many of Evie it makes my heart happy. Her pictures and videos will be all we have to show Ramsey when she is older. I wanted a new lens for Christmas and Jonathan got me the 35 mm f 1.8 and i love it. I have been taking pics like crazy and playing with it. It is a little bit harder to use because you cant zoom and you have to focus it but it also has an auto focus to help you out if you need it. anyway, i definitely recommend it and here are a few shots from the past week!!

Playing outside before it got really cold here!

I love how it takes much better low light/indoor shots.

Ramsey has crazy hair when she doesnt have a bow in!

My sweet puppy who is feeling ( or at least acting ) like she feels better.

She is eating and not getting sick when she does.

She had fun playing in the snow and seems to have much more energy.

We are so thankful!!

I love my baby girl!

Some pics of Evie and Ramseys sweet friends from Addies Birthday party!

Owen

Garland

Hannah

Ann Catherine

We had so much fun playing in the snow we got Monday!

Thank you Evie :)

We are trying our best to make each day normal for Ramsey, whatever that means. We are always "busy" people and don't say no to a lot of things, which of course can be a problem but we really just enjoying doing things. We enjoy being with friends and going to different places. I think because of this Evie got to go and see so many things kids her age would not have gotten to see yet. We are definitely trying to do less, mainly because some days i just don't even care. At the same time if i just sit here i get depressed and so i try to blog or or go for a walk or take Maddie outside, while Ramsey naps. I am mainly just saying these things because so many people ask, how are you still going and doing and my main answer for that is because it makes me feel better and Evie would want me to go and do and not sit and let the Devil get in my head about the What if's that continuously run through my mind.

At the same time, i do not feel like i am "avoiding" my emotions by doing. I am grieving, i cry several times a day, i get angry several times a day and i think about Evie constantly. We all grieve differently and for me i am choosing to live each day to the fullest because i know what it feels like for your world to be turned upside down in a matter of hours and i don't want to have any regrets. I want Evies name to be celebrated, i want her death to be turned into something positive, i want to help people and i want Evie to be proud, to look down and say, "thats my momma, isn't she the best"!