Sunday, October 30, 2011

Mr. and Mrs Williamson

Our sweet friend Jessica got married in Nashville this weekend. We were sorority sisters at UT. She got married in an outdoor ceremony at a friends house and it was a perfect fall wedding!
Congrats Jess!!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Humpty Dumpty and the Beast

We went to a Halloween Party and had way to much fun with our costumes! I googled creative pregnant halloween costumes and found a picture of a girl as humpty dumpty and thought it was to clever and probably easy to do. I bared my belly and Jonathan painted it for me! ha
and Jonathan was the Beast!
He was originally going to be Mayhem from the allstate commercials but Casey found this and he had to wear it! I don't know what he is laughing so hard at but this picture trips me out
Ramsey is going to be Belle so they are going to be cute on Monday :)
The Williams were great hostesses and had their house decorated so festive!
Clark Kent and Cousin Eddie :)
Mary, Joseph and Baby Lilly
Jamie was a perfect Richard Simmons
Party off the Pounds!
Best Costume of the night, Emilee made it herself, she was a pinata! haha
Roasting Smores

Friday, October 28, 2011

Awareness

We have put off posting this for a long time, trying to decide whether or not it was anyones business exactly. We have decided to make people aware and to clear peoples thoughts on what happened to Evie.
Several people have asked on this blog how Evie passed away. The day after she died the medical examiner performing Evies autopsy noticed a blue rash on her body, which is a sign of Meningitis. We did notice it the morning we found her but she did not have it when i gave her a bath the night before so we had no idea what it was.
We were told that morning to take Ramsey to the ER to be given an antibiotic, which could only help Ramsey if she already had meningitis, not to prevent it.

After several long months and questioning what happened to our baby, the autopsy results were finally complete the end of this summer.
The medical examiner sat us down and we went over the report. Reading the autopsy result of you own child was devastating for Jonathan and I. We read everything and the medical examiner was as informative as she could be, but in her words she couldn't explain exactly what happened, i think they were stumped as well.

Basically, the frustrating part was Evies body was very healthy. There was no signs of any infection anywhere in her body besides her spine and brain. Her heart and other organs were in perfect condition. The sent off several blood work tests and after not finding much of anything they determined Evie died of Meningioencephalitis. Pretty much a combination of meningitis and encephalitis. Meningitis affects your spine and encephalitis is an infection in your brain. They were both presenting but one was not stronger than the other, so they combined them.

We want to make people aware because this is considered a silent killer. There are vaccinations strictly for meningitis but only when you are school age. There are also several strands of meningitis such as viral and bacterial and the antibiotic can not cover all. There is still so much research that needs to be done.
Evie and Ramsey were up to date on all of their shots and had actually just gotten their 18 month shots the fall before Evie passed away. There are a couple shots that could help prevent meningitis ( HiB, PCV7) and the girls did have those.
In April, the FDA did finally approve giving a meningitis vaccine for children under 2.

Evie and Ramsey were at the doctor with pinky eye on Tuesday.We stayed home from school that day and on Wednesday stayed home so they could get better. Evie had no symptoms that we could see. She ate great all day and played with Ramsey. She wanted me to hold her more and was a little whinier than usual but i only think more about that now because she died, otherwise, she was 20 months, what 20 month old doesn't whine some or want to be held. I gave her a bath that night and noticed nothing. She went to sleep with no problems and we didn't hear a peep from her or Ramsey all night. I am not telling you this to scare you but to clear up some confusion people had and we had as well.

This whole time we questioned the whole day before she died and went back through the day in our heads and beat ourselves up over it. If Evie hadn't of died we wouldn't have thought twice about that day because in all actuality there wasn't much different about it than any other day with them.
But we are angry that there wasn't anything we could have done either. Why did i not have " mothers intuition" that something was just not right on Wednesday. so i would have taken her in and the doctors could have saved her? Why didn't they notice something was different on Tuesday while we were at the doctor and why in the world was it our child that was chosen to die from some stupid infection that is so rare to get and die from?
I just get so angry sometimes that Evie died and there was nothing i could have done to save her. It makes you feel like you failed as a parent. We all try to do the best we can but in the end we are only human and doctors are only human and the one perfect healer, God, is all powerful and there are some things we just cant explain. He has his reasons for taking her from us but boy i wish i knew why.

For more information or to clear up some confusion you might have you can check out these websites.

Thank you for your continued prayers and support for our family. Every day is a struggle and as we approach this holiday season and the anniversary of Evies death we ask that you continue to pray for our family.
Thank you for reading our blog and for always being so supportive in your comments
But most importantly for remembering this sweet girl!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Move that Bus!!

While we were out of town we had the wall knocked down between the living room and sitting room. We told the guys we didn't want a picture or anything and we wanted to be completely surprised when we got back. It made such a huge difference! They had carpet in the living room so we decided to put hardwoods down to match the sitting room and that made a huge difference also!
We LOVE it!
What do you think?

Looking from the fireplace to the front of the house
Much better!
Looking from the kitchen
I can see the front door now :)
Looking from the front door
I didn't take a before of this but this is my favorite picture.
Now its time to decorate and make this place feel homey :)
Jonathan and my dad also decided we needed a bigger TV so you can see it from the other room!
BOYS...
Looking from the sitting room window at the front of the house.

Monday, October 24, 2011

Priddy Farms

We went to a birthday party for Miss Anne Catherine at Priddy Farms on Sunday!
We actually went last year with the girls to pick out our pumpkins
Heres my sweet Evie
She played so hard, I think she almost fell asleep! ha
I missed her so much while we were there. Every day things are hard but so are going to places where we have sweet memories from. Birthday parties always make me sad because it is so obvious she is missing. All of our friends kids are there running around but she isn't and she used to always be. Don't get me wrong i love our friends and their children and love celebrating their birthdays. We are blessed with wonderful friends who have been so supportive of us so i am honored to celebrate their children. Some things are just harder then others!
Ramsey had a great time
I think Ramsey just ate cheese balls for dinner!
But she had fun eating with her boyfriend Charlie :)
She loved playing on the big ship!
Happy Birthday AC!!!
Picking a pumpkin
She was so excited about riding this train but once it started she started screaming that she wanted out, it was so funny! This girl surprises me, it amazes me what freaks her out and things i would think would, dont!
This picture is actually of her saying cheese and loving being in it, i wish i had gotten one of her when it started going! ha

Hilton Head Island

We finally all met up in South Carolina.
We stayed at a family friends house and enjoyed a week on the beach!
As with every family trip we have had since Evie died there is always such a ache in my heart. Another thing that makes it obvious she isn't here anymore. A huge part of our family is missing. Like i have said before she loved the beach and she got to go to Edisto 2 years ago for fall break! I love that we have all of these sweet memories with her and i can hold on to these forever!
It was cold and cloudy but that didn't keep Ramsey from playing in the cold water and building sand castles!


The sun peeked out for a minute!
Jonathan was obviously bored....
drama queen :)
"Look...i swimmin" thats what she kept telling me! ha
Catching a ride back to the house
The guys played golf so the girls went to a farm and Ramsey got to ride a pony. I wasnt sure if she would be scared or not but she loved it!
She kept saying "so sweet pony"
This deer just walked around the farm and petting zoo area.
She called it Bambi and i think she had just told the deer to "Give me my kisses".
She says this to us and i love it :)
Do i have something in my teeth?
Did you know all donkeys have a Cross on their backs? I thought that was pretty cool, i had never heard of that before. It might be hard to see but the sides of the cross go down at his shoulder blades
Ramsey LOVED the horses and they loved her. She fed them a carrot she found on the ground and a piece of grass, I think this horse was a little disappointed when she gave it a piece of grass. She looks like a little horse whisperer..ha
A goat on a roof is so funny to me. This is the only thing i remember from when we went to Ireland when i was little. Goats would stand on top of all the gates, so it made me laugh when this guy did it to!
This horse was a Clydesdale like from the budweiser commercials, it was so pretty!
We went to check out the islands famous lighthouse and boat marina. It was soo windy! Ramsey lived in this jacket. I did a horrible job at packing her clothes, she had one pair of pants and this jacket so that is what she wore all week! You know me i had an outfit and bathing suit for each day and she didn't wear anything because it was so cold! ha
The lighthouse
We said bye to the beach on our way home Friday
It was a pretty day but still just in the 60's.
She found a dead fish and went "tickle tickle"...then she accidently stepped on it...it didn't even phase her but i thought i was going to throw up! ha
Cya later beach!