Go Panthers!

My cousin Kennedy came to Memphis for a basketball tournament with her middle school team. They were runners up in their county tournament and champions in their area .

They won the first game earlier this week but lost last night.

They did great and it was fun to watch her play!

Ramsey luvs "bakketball"

We love double zero!

We ate dinner at Hueys and then they all headed back to Martin!

Ramsey and Kennedy bonded and Ramsey had a fit when she had to leave and asked for her the whole ride home! ha

Come back to see us!!

I thought the Guthrie family would enjoy the post and seeing Kennedy in action!

Snow Day V

It has snowed so much this year so far!

Crazy global warming...

skinny minny maddie!

She is still hanging in there. We were worried about her last night she was shaking really bad and seemed to be in pain but we gave her some more fluids and she seemed to be much better this morning. Maybe she played to hard in the snow?

trying to slide down the driveway...it didn't work to well!

Jonathans friends say when he has his beard he looks like Rocky...so he decided to rein act his training scene! ha

Hope everyone had a fun snow day! Even though i think it was very frustrating for my friends who had to head home from work in it Wednesday night, the roads were terrible!!

Glad you all made it home safely though

Two Months

I cant believe Evie has been gone for two months now. I thought the world was supposed to stop but then again each day is one day closer to being with her for eternity! I can't wait.
The snow is coming down pretty good right now, its so pretty. I know a lot of people are over it, but i enjoy it and now when it snows i will think of Evie.
I had bible study this morning and i am always very encouraged when i leave. We talked about the story when Jesus walked on water. To refresh your memory, click here.

We talked about what it meant to "step out of the boat" and what would it take for you to do it. How would you have reacted if you were in the disciples shoes, what sometimes keeps you "in the boat"?
One thing that spoke to me the most is when Peter got scared because the waves and wind were rough, he lost his trust in Jesus and started to sink. Peter called out to Jesus for help and my version says "immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him". I know most times and from the past two months i question whether God is there for me or not. This scripture tells me how simple it is, all you have to do is ask for him and he will immediately grab you and help you.
There have been several times where i thought he was letting me drown, or i felt all alone. But scriptures prove that that isn't the case. He might not be doing what you think he should be doing, but he truly has my best interests at heart.
Our last discussion was, what keeps you in the boat, fear of failure or inadequacy, you get busy or you are uncertain of the response you will get. I know from experience that i feel like once i am comfortable or get "settled in my boat" God literally throws me out and forces me to trust him. Sounds kind of funny but i think back to when we were pregnant the first time and lost our baby at 10 weeks. When we got pregnant with Catherine i was scared the whole time until we got to 10 weeks and i could breath, thinking we were good to go and then two weeks later, we find out Catherine has non functioning kidneys. I delivered her at 21 weeks on April 6, 2008. Then we were pregnant with the girls and i got past 10 weeks then i got past finding out if they had kidneys, then week 20 hit and i thought ok we are good to go and then..bed rest and emergency surgery and the fear of losing two more little girls. Finally, the girls were here and i could breath. We got through the Nicu and the girls were growing and becoming toddlers and everything was great and then..Evie is taken from us. If we have any more kids i keep thinking i am never going to get to a point where i can relax.

But we can't live that way, there is always going to be something that we are scared and worried about, there will always be obstacles in our life and heartache in our lives but while we are in the rough waters of life we should affirm to ourselves that God is trustworthy and will immediately offer his hand to us , pulling us to safety, not letting us drown.

Todays Jesus Calling

Seek my Face more and more. You are really just beginning your journey of intimacy with me. It is not an easy road, but it is a delightful and privileged way; a treasure hunt. I am the Treasure, and the glory of My Presence glistens and shimmers along the way. Hardships are part of the journey too. I mete them out ever so carefully, in just the right dosage, with a tenderness you can hardly imagine. Do not recoil from afflictions, since they are among my most favored gifts. Trust me and don't be afraid, for i am your Strength and your Song.

Birthday Photographer?

Recently we have had several birthday parties for some sweet friends and i have had the honor of taking some pics. I still have so much to learn and my pictures are by no means fabulous but i enjoy doing it and when it is for friends i couldnt be happier.

Our first birthday this month was for Sebastian Meduri. He is the son of my sweet friend Audra, we have been friends since high school. She now lives in Boston and we miss her so much but we had a wonderful time together when they were here! His first Birthday had a nautical theme and her mom and mother in law did not spare on the details!

Some fun details

The Meduri family

Our second birthday this month was for Garland White. Her mom Hayley and i have been friends since high school as well, she was my maid of honor and we have been through it all together! It has been so fun raising our kids together!

Now its time to get ready for the snowstorm they are saying is coming tomorrow!! My brother in law Michael LOVES snow to say the least. He is one of the girls biggest fans and he pointed out that on January 9th we had snow and tomorrow is February 9th. Each month after Evie passed away on December 9th, she has given her uncle Michael snow :) I think it makes him very happy!

Little Hoot

I will be having a Little Hoot clothing show with Erica Miller!!

My friend Colleen and her mom Nancy started Little Hoot and have such cute things.

Nancy is actually the one making a quilt for us with all of Evies monogrammed clothes and blankets. I am so excited about that and i know it will be something very special for us to have!

They offer appliques and can make dresses,rompers,two piece sets, shorts and many other casual summer gear so come check it out!!

Sunday February 20th from 5-7 ( Erica Millers House)

Monday February 21st from 1-4 ( my house)

Tuesday February 22nd from 11-2 ( my house)

Please feel free to email me for our address and any other info you might have (aliciaharrison514@yahoo.com) You can also order by emailing Colleen and Nancy. Check out her blog for her information by clicking on Little Hoot above.

Hope to see you there!

I will leave you with Evie sporting some Little Hoot ruffle pants:)

sunny days

I cant believe how warm it is today! It was so nice to get outside and go to the park with Ramsey and some friends and have the sun shining down on us!

I havent blogged in a while, i really havent had much to say. We are still very encouraged by everyone and their prayers and are thankful for the support we do have. I think right now we are just trying to get through each day some days are ok and some days are terrible where we are full of anger and sadness.

My biggest struggle right now is trying to remember things about Evie. I dont know what it is but i feel like i cant remember anything about the girls when it was them together. I want to watch videos to hear her voice, look at pictures to see her smile but sometimes the more i do the angrier i get. Grief is definintely a rollercoaster of emotions, thoughts and feelings. We have started counseling and really enjoyed our first session. I think it will be very good for us.

We went back to church for the first time last Sunday. This was very hard for me for some reason. I didnt really want to go but i knew i needed to go. I was very hesitant to go into the sanctuary because that is where Evies service was, i am sure i will eventually but i can't sit in there and look at the pulpit, so we went to the service in the gym. I struggled so much with singing. I couldn't bring myself to sing all the praise songs. I wanted to but couldnt, i wasnt in a "praise Jesus" mood. I just cried the whole time. I was inspired by our speaker though, Crawford Loritts. He was really great and spoke about revival and how we need God to revive our hearts. What a very personal sermon for me to hear.

Well now i am honestly sitting hear with a blank mind so i think i will just show you some recent pics of what we have been doing :)

We found out our friends Brent and Debra are having a BOY! Cameron David will be here in June :)

Riley and Ramsey are so excited about their new boyfriend...

My friend Stephanie came in town!

We had dinner at her parents and played with Robbins and William

Ramsey had a stare down with Sophie :)

We celebrated the birth of sweet Hannah with a sip and see with friends.

This is Meredith with her two girls and her mom.
We went to Sega gym when it snowed this week. Ramsey loved jumping on the trampoline and running around. We did smack our face on the ground though and ended up with a big knot on our forwhead and a bloody nose..but we got over it pretty fast and did it all over again.

Pump it up for preschool time...do not go on MLK day.. it was crazy!

This picture trips me out though. I think we are making the same screaming face! ha

Another friend from highschool, Anna, came in town with her two kiddos and we played all day at my parents then had a wonderful girsl night out. This mainly envolved going to GiGi's to get cupcakes and then driving all around looking at homes. We actually used to do this when we were in hghschool. We would drive all around the million dollar home neighborhoods. I don't know why this was fun, but it was with a car full of girlfriends. Then we met Hayley and Lyndi for drinks and apps at Elfos. We did alot of reminiscing which was so fun and i truly was at peace the whole time i was with these girls. Everytime i am with my dgroup girls which is Hayley, Stephanie( who i talked about earlier)Anna and Lyndi and our leader, Amber, who is now my sis in law, i think of our group verse. Hebrews 10:24-25 "And let us consider how we may spur one another to love and good deeds, not giving up meeting together as some are in the habit of doing, but encourage one another and all more as you see the day approaching". I think it is very rare for a group to remain friends and keep in touch for this long. We were put together as a discipleship group when we were freshman in highschool, almost 15 years ago!

Ramsey and Ellie

Garland and Will

My friend Katie painted this awesome picture and gave it to me last night. Katie is a wonderful artist who sells paintings in stores around Memphis and also has Art and Soul Paint Parties. The parties are so much fun, check out the one i had here. I absolutely love it, i will treasure this!

Evie is on the left and Ramsey is on the right :)

Yesterday while Ramsey was at school my friends Audra and Anna surprised me with a spa day!! We felt like the Real Housewives of Germantown! ha We got massages and then they had lunch and mimosas for us after. It was the perfect day with sweet friends.
I really dont know what i would do without Jonathan, Ramsey, my family and friends. One thing we have been told is to Cling to God and Cling to each other during this time and we are doing our best.

Today i am clinging to this verse, that my friend Emily shared with me on a frame she sent for Ramsey. "Therefore you now have sorrow, but i will see you again and your heart will rejoice and no one will take your joy away from you" John 16:22

A girl after my own heart

Ramsey found this at our friends house and knew what to do with it!

I wonder how?! :)