Yesterday was hard. I don't know what happened but i think my "numbness" is wearing off. I just wanted to cry all day. I missed Evie more yesterday than i have yet. Its almost like i forget she isn't here and than someone says something and my heart drops. This is going to be such a long road for us. My previous post was exactly how i was feeling at that moment but then my attitude completely changed. I was angry and bitter and felt all alone even though my family was with me and i had 100 emails of encouragement from all of you.
I have found some comfort in the book Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. Everyone needs to have this book. I know for me, its hard to find time to sit and have a bible devotion or alone time with God. I know this is important but to be honest i don't do it. We do try to read this book each day and have done so everyday since Evie passed away. I did not read it friday morning but then before i went to bed i did and this is what it said....
"Come to me with your gaping emptiness, knowing that in me you are complete. As you rest quietly in My Presence, My Light within you grows brighter and brighter. Facing the emptiness inside you is simply the prelude to being filled with my fullness. Therefore, rejoice on those days when you drag yourself out of bed, feeling sluggish and inadequate. Tell yourself that this is a perfect day to depend on me in childlike trust. If you preserve in this dependance as you go through the day, you will discover at bedtime that joy and peace have become your companions. You may not realize at what point they joined you on your journey, but you will feel the beneficial effects of their presence. The perfect end to such a day is a doxoloy of gratitude. I am He from whom all blessings flow"
I found comfort in his word that i am complete in Him. He is the only person that can make me whole. Not Jonathan,my family or anything else. Only him. I need to remind myself of this daily and when i feel alone, know that i can go to him and rest quietly in his presence and what's even better is to know that Evie is there to.
We have been looking at alot of videos and pics of Evie and just wanted to share a few favorites.
The last picture we took of Evie and its perfect.
Shows exactly the type of girl she was!
My beach bum.
She LOVED the beach when we went this year!
Playing with her BFF Mammie ( Maddie)
I wanted to just quickly say thank you to my sorority sisters.
Several of them put money together and bought us a mature pink dogwood tree in memory of Evie. What a special gift! We can plant it in our new home and every spring when it blooms we will think of our sweet Evie. It can also be a place for us to go sit and talk to her and for Ramsey to go as well. Thank you so much for doing that for us. Also, the majority of the guys that bought us our new roof were Jonathans fraternity brothers. We are thankful for the bonds we share and glad we "bought our friends" in college :) Thanks again
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI am a stranger to you but was referred to your page by a friend. I am a pediatric oncology nurse. There is no right or easy way to lose a child, but as my mother once said when talking about my brother who died of leukemia, "at least I had time to prepare", for whatever that was worth. I can't even bring myself to imagine how horrific this has been for you. The devotional you sited is breathtaking and forged me so. Just this week we learned my precious nephew has a life threatening heart defect and the many specialists who have assessed him are very concerned there is no fix. In their words he is, "a ticking time bomb". We have all been instructed in CPR and he carries an automated defibrillator every where he goes. And we wait. Wait for answer. Wait for a fix. Wait for God's perfect timing and trust that He will carry us when we can walk no more. This passage you shared speaks to that so beautifully. Thank you for sharing this and what is in your heart. Please know you and your husband are prayed for as is your darling Ramsey Cate. She must be so lost and confused and has no words...God love her! I also wanted to recommend another book. It is one I have ling recommended to parents who have lost their children. It is called Tear Soup by Pat Schweibert...such beautiful description of the journey of grief. May you know the peace that passes all understanding and may that peace fill your heart during this miraculous season of Christmas, the reason for the secure knowledge that you will hold all your girls again one day!
Alicia -
ReplyDeleteI read that same devotional book and when I read that passage - but my heart immediately thought of you. I will continue to pray for your sweet family without ceasing.
Many, many prayers for you all. Your family has been on my mind. Praying for peace and comfort.
ReplyDeleteAlicia, I'm friends with the Wingos, Stiles and Jessica. I have been praying for your sweet family constantly and my heart is broken over your loss of beautiful Evie. Last night at church our pastor spoke about Heaven and I thought about you the whole time. When we were singing and worshiping Christ I could only imagine Him holding your two precious daughters. I have three daughters and a son and after reading your post about holding our children tighter, I haven't stopped! Thank you for encouraging us, as mothers, during your most difficult times. I pray daily that God would carry you and hold you up and never let you go. I am praying that His comfort and peace would surpass all understanding just as His word says it does.
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Alicia, I found your blog through another blogger and just wanted to say how deeply saddened I am by your loss. What a beautiful little girl Evie was and still is in Heaven. I actually had a family friend who had twins and one passed away as well and I know how devastating it was for them and it was so hard on their son who was the remaining twin. His sister passed away at 3. I just wanted you to know that their son is doing well and still remembers his sister and talks about her. Evie's memory will not be lost and hopefuly Ramsey can always look to the photos and videos and keep her sister close to her heart. I am praying for your family and I hope you can have some peace.
ReplyDeleteYou continue to be in my thoughts and prayers! I was getting frustrated when my Evie woke up 3 times last night and she is almost 2. You would be thrilled to get out of bed three times with your Evie! I am so sorry that you are having to endure such horrendous pain but you must feel so fortunate to have such amazing friends!
ReplyDeleteAlicia-
ReplyDeleteMy church family is praying for you. Below some of the responses people have sent me. I
wish I could come over and cry with you and hug you.
May you draw near to Him so that He will lift you through this terribly difficult time. I pray for you to be strengthened and comforted in knowing that His love for you and your girls is unimaginable and unequalled! Realize that He holds children in highest regard and loves them specially. “I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.” Phil 4:13
Natalie – thank you for bringing this incredible family to our “radar screen” – As we go about our lives we fail to remember how one instant can change your world. I will pray with all of my might for this amazing and beautiful family. I will pray for God to give them strength to just get out of bed, the perseverence in faith, the trust that the pain does change over time, and to actaully feel the arms of God around them when they are too weak to function. Sending love and energy.
Sending love and prayers and my heartfelt sympathy. Natalie, thank you for making us aware.
I cannot even begin to understand the pain this family has endured. I will be praying for them the peace that transcends all understanding.
Hello. You do not know me. I am the mother of one of your friends. I just want you to know that you are in my prayers every day. God will somehow give you the strength to make it thru this. My sister, 35 years ago lost a child at 2 suddenly and she said the same as you that as much as she loved her family and friends, her faith made her thru this. So continue to pray and I will pray for you too.
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me, but I found a link to your blog on another blog. I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your devastating loss and that your family is in my prayers. Hoping that God's presence surrounds you during this time and that you continue to feel the love of Him and those around you.
ReplyDeleteThank you for continuing to share your life and thoughts with a complete stranger like me. My heart is so heavy for you. As I laid down to sleep last night, I prayed and prayed over you, your husband and Ramsey. Praying for courage and strength to get up each day, praying that God would go before you each day and fill your day with blessings, joy, and purpose, and that He would give you an overwhelming peace about all that has happened and all that is to come.
ReplyDeleteAlica,
ReplyDeleteI read that page of Jesus calling and thought of you the whole time too. I love how you wrote that you get peace in God's presence and that is where Evie is too. You will never know how many people are impacted by your faith right now!
Natalie W
Alicia, you mention that it will be a long road for you all...just know that so many of us are committed to praying for you and loving on you for that whole long road! We are here for you and we love you so much
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Hi Alicia, I'm new to blogging and found you through Carla Thebubblelush as she let her friends know about your angel Evie and asked us for our prayers. I am so very sorry for your precious loss. I will continue to pray for your family.
ReplyDeleteYour pictures, videos and stories are wonderful. You have a very beautiful family.
Shayna
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI don't know you, but I found your story through Kelly's korner and just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you, your family and your sweet Evie Grace.
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI think of you guys so much everyday and have been praying for you as hard as I know how. I know it will be such a long road ahead, but your faith and strength amaze me and I pray that you will continue to find comfort during those hard moments. And I agree with Natalie- your faith is truly impacting others. Love you!
Alicia - I'm so sorry Friday was hard. I'm sure I said nothing right when we spoke briefly. I read the same Jesus Calling passage and knew God was directing my thoughts and prayers to you. We love you all.
ReplyDeleteI'm am praying so much for you and your family. I pray that you find peace, comfort, and the answers that you need. Evie is a precious little angel and a wonderful gift to this earth. I'm so, so sorry that her time with you here on earth was so short.
ReplyDeleteJonathan and Alicia,
ReplyDeleteThis is Tiffany Lankford(Watson), from UT. We just lost my 9 month old nephew in one day to the same terrible cause. My heart has completly broken for you. the pain is too much to bear many days. some of our family members have started an organization called Banebow in his honor. they are here to help parents like you in anyway. please know that they are amazing people that unfortunatly know your situation all too well. words can't do any of this justice. but i am praying for all of you.
tiffany
I continue to pray for you every free minute that I can. Most mornings last week, I simply cried and just repeated your names letting the Holy Spirit cry out for me. You, Jonathan, Ramsey, JimmyeNan, Jack, Rob, and Amber are being bathed in prayer.
ReplyDeleteAs Christmas is upon us, I always like to reflect on the many names of Jesus. Emmanuel has always been my favorite. This year it has a whole new meaning to me. Well, yes it still means "God with us," God made man who came to dwell with us thus the Christmas celebration. But this year as I have prayed for you it is so much more than that. It is "God with us" always, even to the end of the earth. It is God near to us when we need HIm most. It is the Jesus who wept at the tomb of Lazarus. He is my Emmanuel, your Emmanuel, and even in the midst of this terrible tragedy, He is right where He has always been...with us.
We love you and are lifting your names up to the very throne of God. Love, Richie, Kristie, and boys
To help you on your journey:
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I read a blog once of someone who had lost a child and she said that her new vision and goal in life was to get to heaven and prepare for eternity. At the end of the day, whatever our circumstances are, that really is our ultimate goal of being here. And I pray that each day God gives you peace and comfort in knowing that He is with you and is preparing you for that day when you will be with Him and your daughters again. I was thinking about how painful this must be for you, and how pained God must have felt when He lost is son, Jesus. And how you may understand a little bit more how much God loves you to have gone through that pain like you are going through in order to save you and your girls so you can all be together again forever.
ReplyDeleteMany prayers I am praying for you.
Alicia- I am so sorry. Please know that I think about you guys daily and am sending all the love and prayers your way that I can. You are so loved!
ReplyDeletealicia - still thinking and praying for you. i cannot agree more on the book. i was given that book by a friend when i had my miscarriage and i would read it in the mornings before i got out of bed. it helped me to remember God and to remember my relationship with him. i keep it on my bedside table and refer to it when i am having one of those days in which i need the "help."
ReplyDeletehowever, my "issues" pale in comparison to your loss and my heart still breaks for you. i am so elated to hear of all of your wonderful support system out there, it just goes to show how awesome of a person you are.
you, jonathan, ramsey and maddie are still in my thoughts daily.
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteThank you for being so raw and honest about your emotions. Continually praying for you, Ramsey, Jonathan, and family. Your faith is encouraging, indeed. May the Lord richly bless you with grace and peace during the moments you need for Him to simply carry you.
Praying!
Casey Dycus
Still thinking of you and your precious family. Lifting you up in our prayers.
ReplyDeleteI don't know y'all but I'd love to be able to hug and help and bring you some sort of comfort.
Thinking of and praying for y'all this week and for weeks to come.
Lauren in Spring, TX
Praying for you and your sweet family. May God give you comfort and wrap you in His love.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your family. I'm so sorry this has happened.
ReplyDeleteI saw your story posted asking for prayers and came here to tell you that I was praying...I am speechless. My heart hurts for you. I looked through your blog and I was a Tri-Delt with Claire....they are in my prayers also. I too have relied on Jesus Calling through my girls lives (twins 2.5 now...6 mths NICU). It amazes me the level I understand what it is asking of me each time I go through it that I didn't the first time I read it pre-kids. Giving thanks in the face of adversity. When I can find it within myself to do that I can find peace but some days.....I just wanted you to know that I am carrying you in my heart....and holding girls close today.
ReplyDeletePrayer from Proverbs 31 devotional today...kind of appropriate for this post:
ReplyDelete"Dear Lord, I praise You for being a sovereign God. You are in control. I don’t have to be. When I don’t know what to do, Lord, thank You that I can ask You for wisdom and guidance. You are my Wonderful Counselor (Isaiah 9:6). I put in Your hands each of the concerns weighing on my heart and mind. Thank You that I can entrust them into Your loving care. I set my eyes on You, confident You will come to my rescue. In Jesus’ Name, Amen."
Thinking of you daily!
Alicia
ReplyDeleteYour faith has impacted me beyond belief. All your emotions and feelings are real and understandable. Your strength is unbelievable. God has used Jonathan, you, Ramsey and Evie to bring people to the feet of Christ. We are storming the gates of heaven on your behalf with questions, anger, hope, gratitude, a whole spectrum of emotions. The Lord has revealed things about himself through your pain that will forever change me. You all are not forgotten. His name shall be called Emmanuel- GOD WITH US!
I love you,
Andrea K
I'm with Andrea Kay, completely. She said it just perfectly.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Andrea...she said it just beautiful and it is honestly so true. We love you, Kristen Reed and fam
ReplyDeletemy dear sweet friend, i am so very thankful that Jesus is at the center of your life. i can't walk a single day without Him and we know that we we certainly can't walk through trial without the hope of Him, without the hope of one day getting to our most glorious destination. i pray that He will hold you in His arms today, that you may rest in His presence that never leaves you not even for a moment. I pray today that you "may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and height and depth-to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge that you may filled with all the FULLNESS of God" (eph. 3:18) "for the mountains shall depart and the hills be removed, but my kindness shall not depart from you, nor shall My covenant of peace be removed, says the Lord who has mercy on you." (is. 54:10) i pray for you all daily and lift you up to our most High King in Heaven. i love you all, veronica
ReplyDeleteYou have every right in the world to be bitter and angry. Don't feel bad about it for one second!
ReplyDeletepraying for you during this rought time. many, many, blessings love and hugs to you & your family.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you daily.
ReplyDeletei love the first picture of evie! just beautiful. love and prayers to you all!
ReplyDeletealicia, thanks for sharing your heart so honestly with us...it helps me to know how to pray more specically for what you are needing at the moment...for now, i am praying that you will rest in God's promise that He will not leave you for one second of this journey. "...the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you." Deut. 31:6 much love, leanne h.
ReplyDeleteI thought of you when I read this today - In the same way, we can see and understand only a little about God now, as if we were peering at this reflection in a poor mirror; but someday we are going to see him in his completeness, face to face. Now all that I know is hazy and blurred, but then I will see everything clearly, just as clearly as God sees into my heart right now. 1 Corinthians 13:12
ReplyDeleteTrust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Proverbs 3:5
I found your blog through another one. As I have often written in my blog, T.A.N.W. (There Are No Words). My husband died suddenly 3 years ago on December 18th. I, too, have lost my fear .... of pretty much anything. I know where he is and I look so very forward to the day that I get to join him.
ReplyDeletePlease know that you need to grieve the way you need to grieve. Don't feel that you "should" or "shouldn't" be acting a certain way or feeling things differently. Feel what you feel. For as long as you feel it.
Grief sucks.
I wish I had the words to write that would make you feel better, but I don't.
T.A.N.W.
Other than I am praying for you and your beautiful family.
Praying for you today and through this holiday season.
ReplyDeleteMay you be wrapped in love and comfort and peace.
Blessings,
Lauren
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI graduated high school with Jonathan and am also friends with Natalie. I cannot begin to tell you how much my heart aches for you and your sweet, precious family. Your words and strength in the Lord are a true inspiration to so many people. I have lifted you up in prayer so much and often and don't know what to ask of the Lord. I have followed your blog over the past two years and Evie was so so blessed to have the family she had. No words can take your pain away there is only the strength you will find in God. I found this bible verse as I prayed for you and ran out of words. As I read this I lifted up you, Jonathan and Ramsey.
Psalm 6
6:1 O Lord, rebuke me not in your anger,
nor discipline me in your wrath.
2 Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am languishing;
heal me, O Lord, for my bones are troubled.
3 My soul also is greatly troubled.
But you, O Lord—how long?
4 Turn, O Lord, deliver my life;
save me for the sake of your steadfast love.
5 For in death there is no remembrance of you;
in Sheol who will give you praise?
6 I am weary with my moaning;
every night I flood my bed with tears;
I drench my couch with my weeping.
7 My eye wastes away because of grief;
it grows weak because of all my foes.
8 Depart from me, all you workers of evil,
for the Lord has heard the sound of my weeping.
9 The Lord has heard my plea;
the Lord accepts my prayer.
I pray that the Lord carries you through this time of healing. I pray for strength when you are weak, laughter to match the tears and for your marriage. I also pray for sweet, sweet Ramsey.
Much Love and Prayers,
Jenny (Lawrence) DeAngelis
I'm so sorry for your lose. Your baby girl was so beautiful. I lost my 2 1/2 year on 12/16. I'm so sorry, I understand the pain you are feeling.
ReplyDeleteI know I am a stranger, but through your blog I have watched your little ones grow. I am praying and crying with you. I'm not sure I'll ever look at my children the same way. I hold them tighter, love them stronger and have patience I never knew. You are so brave.
ReplyDeleteMy family is close friends with the Colvin's and that is how I heard your story. As a mom of 2 myself I cannot imagine what your family is going through. If you do not already do so check out the blog "Bring the Rain" Angie Smith is a wonderful writer and she too has been through the loss of a child. She has a book about it as well and it is awesome!! "I will carry you" by Angie Smith. She is a strong believer just like you and I really think you would enjoy it when you are ready. Prayers from Ohio!!
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through Kelly's, and I just wanted to tell you that I am so sorry for your devastating loss. As a twin myself, my heart is just broken for sweet Ramsey as she grieves the loss of her other half. And as a mother of a 17 month old girl, my heart is broken for you and your husband. I can't even begin to imagine the incredible agony you are living. Please know that there are many, many people out here praying for you! You have encouraged me to never take one moment with my family for granted!
ReplyDeleteI keep coming back with the same heavy heart and the same prayers ... just hoping you have posted. Just praying you are okay. Even though I know you are not. I could not and can not imagine the pain you and your husband are feeling. I can not imagine the confusion Ramsey is feeling. I AM SORRY!
ReplyDeletePraying everyday and night from Myrtle Beach, SC
I echo the other comments and prayers. Your family will continue to be prayed for during, what I am sure, will be the most difficult holiday season. Today, my sister in Christ, I pray that God will let you sleep deeply tonight, have some moments of smiles and laughter in the coming days, and that tomorrow will be easier than today.
ReplyDeleteHugs and prayers,
Sarah
What beautiful words you wrote....I am a family friend of one of your fellow bloggers, Daveandbritplusone.
ReplyDeleteI want you to now there are now word. I lost my oldest son on April 15, 2010, he would have been 32 years old on May 1, 2010. He was tragically killed in a construction accident. We were so blessed to have a wonderful, praying, supportive community. On June 20, Father's day my husband of 37 years was found dead in my drive way. I was out of town with our younger son. I lost my Dad to cancer on Jan 8, 2010. I have not had time to work through my grief, but there are no words that can express how others feel, there is no sorrow like losing your baby, no matter what age...they are a part of your soul and part of your heart goes with them. I do know that God does numb us and gives us grief in doses, there is no way we can absorb the enormous shock of losing our babies and loved ones at once. I have a friend that just lost her Dad, she was a friend of my sons, he closet thing he will ever have to a sister. When I went to comfort her, I said what a joyous time her Dad was having, she said "Do you really believe that it true?" All I could say is, I could not get out of the bed each day if I did not believe that it true. You talk of not being afraid to die, I have told so many people in the last few days, I am so homesick, I never understood that before. I have another son that has only me, my Mother and my brother. I know I have to go on with life. It seems that you lose focus and purpose when you lose a child. I cannot begin to imagine what your other baby is feeling, I now that even my cats have grieved. Today I visited the cemetery, I have been unable to get stones for my husband and son yet, in some how I think they will make it seem so final. I just can't do so now, but I had a wreath for their grave and flowers for my Dad's grave. I never imagined that at 55 I would have lost a child, and my Dad, and be a widow. I also face financial worries as my husband was our primary bread winner and due to being a diabetic, could not get a lot of life insurance, but work is okay, it keeps me focused. I do know that grieving is exhausting, you will find that some days you are just so tired that you don't think you can get one foot in front of the other, that is when I pray for strength, others times I feel panic and that is when I asked God for peace with the next breath....there are no words, no amount of love from friends and family can heal your broken heart....I wish I could say it gets better, I take one baby step forward and 3 big steps back....you are doing great, let your friends and family prop you up and keep looking up as only God can mend us, I know you get tired and emotional reading comments, but know that you are being prayed for in Pikeville, Ky. from another Mother. It is like being in a club, that you did not ask to join.... Love and hugs
I am a friend of daveandbritplusone and she told me about your blog. You are right the numbness wears off, but God gives us our grief in doses. I lost my son on April 15,10, he was almost 32 years old, but he was my baby. Your words are beautiful. All you can do right now is let others support and love you and keep looking up....I too understand the wanting to go home, but we have others that needs us here. In time we will all be together again. I am praying for you.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to tell you that I'm praying for you...I am a stranger but have had you all on my mind ever since I heard through another blog. Wishing you peace....
ReplyDeleteI still hear the songs
ReplyDeleteI still see the lights
I still feel your love
on cold wintry nights.
I still share your hopes
and all your cares
I'll even remind you
to please say all your prayers.
I just want to tell you
you still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
above all the crowd.
Keep trying each moment
to stay in His grace
I came here before you
to help set your place.
You don't have to be
perfect all the time
He forgives you the slip
if you continue to climb.
To my family and friends
please be thankful today
I'm still close beside you
in a new special way.
I love you all dearly
now don't shed a tear
cause I'm spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year.
Thinking of you and praying for you today.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you today. The story of the "Littlest Angel" came to mind. Please know you all are always in my heart and prayers.
ReplyDeleteThinking and praying for your family today. May the lord lift you up.
ReplyDeleteAlicia, I am just now reading this post, and I am so thankful to get glimpses into the real depths of your heart...and how beautiful that God is touching and will comfort those depths. I love how He spoke to you through Jesus Calling. I have been praying for you guys so much. I, too, am storming the gates of heaven on your behalf...begging the Lord for peace and comfort, and going through so many emotions at one time. I am sure that you want to wake up and see that this was a terrible nightmare. I am so thankful for the body of Christ surrounding you, and at the same time I am sure that you feel so lonely in a housefull of people. I appreciate your raw feelings and emotions so much. I am praying that God meets every need, no matter how big or small.
ReplyDeletethough i dont know you i am thinking of you and your family often- praying for you whenever i think of you.will keep checking your blog. thanks for updating. thank you also for posting that passage from that book, how awesome is our God.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss. I am sure that very few understand what you are going through. How very difficult this will be for the rest of your life here on earth. I have no words to give...and I am sorry for that. Seek out those who have walked the same path as you have..by that I mean, those who have lost a child suddenly to an illness...even those who have lost a toddler to the same illness..They are the only ones who can begin to understand your pain. Don't expect those who have not been in your shoes to understand, don't look to them for answers to the pain you are feeling..Turn to God....I know all to well what you are going through and again, I am very, very sorry!
ReplyDeleteI have stumbled across your blog and I just want to let you know that I am praying for your family. I hope that you all know that you have an angel in heaven waiting for you to join her one day. Unlike the rest of us that will know suffering and pain, Evie is now immediately joined to God in heaven. She is truly blessed! And so is your family for knowing and loving her! May God bless you!
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through Kelly's Korner's blog. I'm a pediatric cardiology nurse practitioner. I'm not sure if you've talked with your family doctor or pediatrician, but if it hasn't been looked into, you may want to check your daughter for a heart rhythm problem, this can be a cause for young children to pass away suddenly and unexpectedly. Your doctor could order an EKG or he/she may want you to see a cardiologist.
ReplyDeleteThis is just a thought I had after reading your story. I'll be praying for your family.
there hasn't been a day since reading your post that I have not thought and prayed for you family...
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