Picture next to Evies Dogwood Tree we planted in the back yard.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Mothers Day
I didn't realize how much i would want Mothers Day to end until the day got here. Special dates have been harder this year then the year after Evie died. I was told it would be this way. Mainly because last year was a big blur but reality has set in this year. I know i am a blessed mom and have beautiful sweet babies but i just wanted the day to be over. On a day when you are celebrating being a mom i just didn't feel there was anything to celebrate. I know it isn't my fault my daughters passed away but you still feel that as a mom you are supposed to protect your babies and unfortunately i couldn't do that so sometimes its hard to pat yourself on the back. However, i know i should not complain, there are so many women out there waiting for the day they get to celebrate mothers day, i was once in their shoes so i certainly do not take it for granted. The day was just harder than i thought.
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I am so sorry it was hard:( You look beautiful but I know you so wish Evie was in the picture instead of the tree. I think she knows you would do anything in the world to protect her. Thank God for the hope of Heaven or this life would be unbearable.(Big hugs) Your a sweet mommy to ALL of your girls :)
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